He is gone

Heartbreaking day indeed. Started the morning with tears. Think on the bright side, he can now stop all the pain, no need to suffer anymore. I hate myself for not spending more time with you. I wish I could've talk to you more. I hate myself for couldn't see you for the one last time. Don't worry, I won't forget all the memories. How I used to sit between you and her on the motorcycle every Sunday. How I used to join you and your friends for morning yumcha session, eating pau beside you. Haha you must be shocked how I can remember these things so well. I never forget. Those were my precious memories. The way you talk, the way you always ask me to visit my kindergarten teacher. The way you eat, you always eat in fast speed before you had to suffer.
You might already forger who am I, but I won't and I will never ever forget you. Gong, close your eyes and rest well now. Ah Mei loves you.
#21.8.2014

Life? Life.

Aloha peeepaaaa! How's life? I was sooo busy since I started my college but hey heyyy I am on Raya break now! Gotta prepare for exam then yayyy I am done with my first semester! 

Hmm... thinking of what to blog for this post. Ahh, I have to say there were a lot of bad thing happened recently. Plane tragedies, Uncle Danny (my dad's friend) and two teachers just passed away. :'( R.I.P and strong, people. My thoughts and prayers are with you. *sigh* 

I attended Uncle Danny's funeral. I really couldn't accept the fact that he just gone like that.. Few weeks before, he just held an open house party and few weeks later......  ;( Sitting there and I heard an uncle was telling some stories between him and Uncle Danny. Telling.. telling and his eyes became red, tears rolled down his cheeks. Such heartbreaking to see. Imagine if one day I lost a friend....... uhhhhh *touch wood* I can still remember his face, when we bumped into him etc although I am not close to him personally. Uncle Danny, you will be missed. 

Another sad news from my friend few days ago, Encik Tan's wife passed away. She doesn't know me but I can still remember her face. I still remember she always came to our school and helped out Buddhist Club for their food stall. I still remember she came during BACOP, brought along her camera and a bright smile on her face. I can never forget her smile because somehow it tells me that she is a very kind teacher (and yea, she really is). May you rest in peace, teacher. It must be tough for Encik Tan. Take care teacher, my deepest condolences to your loss...

Just got another news when I was scrolling my Facebook feeds this morning, a BM teacher from my high school had just passed away. I was really shocked to know this. She never taught me before, but still the same, I can still remember her face, her smile.. She is always smilling in my memory...Felt so sad reading my high schoolmates' statuses. Puan Rossidah, may you rest in peace.

What a 2014.. Life is so unpredictable. We don't know what's going to happen next. One second you are fine, and the next second you might just leave the world like that. Life is so short and it is so fragile. What we can do is live life to the fullest, count your blessings. Don't take things for granted, appreciate and cherish every single one person around us. Be grateful and positive. Take care, guys. Guess I'll just stop here.

25.7.2014 ; Friday

Stay strong, gong. I don't want to lose you...

DIY Food : Nutella Ice Pops

Taaadaaa come back with a DIY food post. So I went shopping at Ikea with mom. Just thought of buying things for new house but I ended up discover something cute.

IT'S ICE POP MOULD!

Aren't they looking cute and fun?

 I had seen many photos on internet about making ice pops by using this mould so I persuaded mom to get this home teeheee. Came back home and can't wait to start making something yummmmmm! (also to prove it's not waste of money)

Are you a fan of Nutella? Have you ever thought of turning it into another food instead of just spreading it on your bread? I am telling you, YESHHH WE CAN MAKE NUTELLA ICE CREAM BY OUR OWN! It's really simple!

All the ingredients you will need are just Nutella and full cream milk.

1 cup of full cream milk and 1/3 cup of Nutella

Blend them together until thoroughly combined.

Pour into your ice pop mould and freeze for 2 or 3 hours.

Lastly, ready to enjoy your happiness!

THAT'S IT!

Simple right? I feel like a kid while doing it hahaha.

*drum rolls* 

Introduce you to my homemade Nutelle ice pop!

It tastes incredibly good and I'm sure Nutella fans will surely love it!

It's really simple and even lazy people like me will definitely try making many other flavors of ice pops! Such a happy kid on earth.

Chocolate Brownies #1

Since I am so free now, I will keep my blog updating. Oops, I think I had said this so so many times but my blog still dead hahaha. Huuhuu my passion is back ok!

Happy Friday! Decided to bake something because I am craving for sweet treats + my mom won't stop asking me to bake. Anyway, I baked chocolate brownies and wanna share recipe to you all! It's really easy, difficulty is only ★★★ according to the recipe book. :D

What we need :

Dark Chocolate 120g

2 eggs (room temperature)

Brown sugar 120g

Melted butter 90g

Salt 1/4 tsp

Flour 60g

Chopped walnuts 1/2 cup

Vanilla essence 1/2 tsp

Fyi, I never add vanilla essence or any essence whenever I bake. Because I don't think it's necessary haha. Of course you may add them, it will enhance the flavor and aroma of the cake I guess.

Here are the steps : 

1) Finely chop the dark chocolate. Melt over a pot of simmering water.

2) In another bowl, beat eggs and brown sugar with an electric mixer for about 8 minutes until thick.

3) Pour the melted chocolate into the egg mixture. Add melted butter and stir well.Sift in flour, salt and add vanilla essence. Mix again. lastly add walnuts and stir well.

4) Pour the butter into the baking tray (20-cm square tray) lined with baking paper.Bake in a preheated oven at 180°C for about 40 minutes. Leave it to cool and cut into pieces.

Optionally, sprinkle with icing sugar and serve!

*** Recipe from "100 Desserts" by Winnie Chu ***

It had been a long time since I last baked this so I had forgotten about the thickness. I was worrying when I sent it to the oven. Wondering why is my cake so thin?! Luckily it turned out well. 

Yummmm. The tops two photos are my Brownies Tower and Brownies Castle. Lame I know ~
 The only sad thing is I HAVE NO ICE CREAM IN MY FRIDGE. 

Oh no how can it be.

Ice cream + Brownies = Perfection !!

It's ok, I'll just eat it and drink my milk hahaha. Ciao!

9.5.2014 ; Friday

The end of SPM, the end of High School

After Pangkor trip, it was Hari Anugerah Cemerlang at my high school. Great great I have to go back school with my charcoal skin and dark dark eye circles. Eh no you can't see my eye circles since my skin colour became as dark as that. Ok not funny hehehe. It's all because I slept really really late or shall I just say I slept early cuz it was like 3 or 4am!

Get back to the topic. I would say it was a dream came true day for me. When I was form 4, we were just like the students now, sitting on the assembly ground, watching ex-seniors came back to receive awards from the VIP guests, putting my hands together for them. That motivated me. I made a promise to myself back then. I want to come back as a award receiver just like them. YOLO right, if I miss it, I'll have no another chance. Erm it was counted as a little motivation for me to study hard. BUT YOU KNOW I AM STILL LAZY ANYWAY.

Quite surprised when I got my result actually because I didn't really expect high. Yup I am afraid of too much disappointments. It was not the best result but I'm still grateful although I will still regret whenever my mom brought this up. Nah nah nah nah forget it! I'm still happy because I had the chance to attend this day! Ngam ngam hou for the minimum requirement, I would say I'm lucky hehehe.

Just wanna note this down,

HEY YOU LITTLE GIRL, I FULFILLED WHAT I HAD PROMISED. YOU MAY GO ON LIFE WITH YOUR BIGGER DREAMS NOW (: 

Overall, I would say the little motivation did worked at some point. Like when I was demotivated and had no study mood at all or when I felt like giving up, this so called little motivation striked. DING DING it did pushed me A LITTLE muahahaha *syok sendiri* K lah I just wonder if anyone out there do this childish thing too, promise yourself you will xxxxxxx to motivate you! DETERMINATION! Oh yay this is the right word. Work or not? It really depends on you, yourself! I must say IT FEELS REALLY REALLY GREAT when you finally achieve it! Ahhh ~ Fighting guys! Be determined!

I know you are bored now haha so stop blah blah and here some photos!

Just kidding, I'll still bored you with words ohohoho. Here are my lovely and precious girls ♥

Glad to have them as my victims!! *evil smile*

(Things to regret: Yihtyng couldn't make it here and Teckjia was not in!)

Don't judge these books by their covers! They dressed so smart but they are still all 38 po aka crazy girls!!!

*OOPS AM I TALKING ABOUT MYSELF TOO OOPS*

These are part of my adorable but still 38 juniorsssssss ♥

All the best girls! 

OKOK I know I know! You probably want to ask me why are all girls in those photos. 

So here's a bonus for you and to wrap this post up.

Taadaaaaa! Excuse my blur scary face!!! Blame the guys teeheeee.

Lastly, it officially marks the end of my high school and SPM candidate's life.

I am getting old oh shit.

28.4.2014 ; Monday

What I did huh?

OH HI I AM HERE !!! Okay, I have to admit that blogging mood always strike at midnight. It's almost 1am and I can't sleep. Maybe it's because of the nap I took this evening OR maybe that few sips of Nescafe I just took? Oh whatever, conclusion is I CAN'T SLEEP and...I'm hungry too hahaha. There are always many things running on my mind once I lie on my bed. Oh yea one exception. Except when I am really really super exhausted and tired hehehe. I bet you are the same, right? Well, since I have that blogging mood SO why not I make some updates on my bloggy! (Obviously I am doing it now)

So it's April 2014 now and let me summarize everything in the past few months, shall we? ARE YOU READY FOR LONG LONG BLOG POST?! Readers be like, "Aren't you just said that you are going to SUMMARIZE?!" Haha ok stop! Let's start!

After graduation, people around me started their college or even found a job to not waste time! And me? Guess what I did? Aha! I did nothing a.k.a ROTTING at home. Unbelievable! I planned to go for any short courses since last year. Obviously that failed. Kinda awkward when people question me like "Yo, what have you been doing huh?" I will always smile like an idiot and say "Nothing eh, hehehehe rotting lo." *continue smile like an idiot* Their next response will always be.......

 "HUH? You didn't work meh?" or "HUH? You not boring meh? Stay at home everyday oh." YESH, with that face!

Btw I did something meaningful also lah. Not like really everyday doing nothing at home kekeke. I am now leaning Korean language. Ha, that's one of the thing I wanted to learn so badly! So far so good, still learning some general + basic sentences and words. Problem is I am still that lazy to do revision!! Ugh lazy kid. But I'm still grateful because the classes are free and we get free textbooks! My second target after I master this will be Japanese language! Hwaiting! I have a thing for languages or perhaps I love learning new things. Hope to learn as many things as possible when I am still young. (:

Oh yea, another thing that I had been doing was researching + thinking! Yepppp, I was so confused about my future. I am afraid of making wrong decision. I don't want to regret in the future. *sobsob* But I guess I had made up my mind. I shall go for something I like and I think I found it. My dream since I was small is to study overseas. Oh well, I am afraid that I couldn't achieve it since I am not taking pre-u courses that are recognized worldwide. Hmmm.... finger cross that I will have a chance to pursue degree overseas after my diploma...... And I hope the college I've chosen will not disappoint me.....

I am starting to think that money is important... It's like everything I need everything around me are all related to money. OH WHY. Btw there's a chinese quote comes to my mind: "钱不是万能的，但没有钱就万万不能" HAHA quite true tho. I remember I saw it on Keat Ming's shirt last time if I am not mistaken. Dunno why but I am starting to feel bad for asking money from my dad. Uhh, I even feel really bad for asking him to pay my college fees. I dunno why, I just feel that I am useless sometimes. I should've studied harder and get more A+. I should've study will full scholarships. But what past is past, can't change it anyway. ): I promise to pay back everything you gave me in the future, dad and mom. (:

I guess that's all for tonight. Lastly, let me end my post with this

Good night peeeeepaaa! 

*Photos from my tumblr http://blur-tiramisu.tumblr.com and Google*


9.4.2014 ; 1:46 a.m

14.11.2014 - Girls gathering after SPM

Yeeepeee! Finally get to catch up with my long-time-no-see + busy F17 girls! (Forever 17 is our group name ok hahaha) Because it's public holiday! The sad thing is Hwai and Ga couldn't join us. I miss both of you too suipo! So we decided to try out the Hinz Cafe which is located in Bandar Menjalara, right beside the forever-full house Hometown Steamboat ! The cafe is cute. It describes all wahahaha.

Chicken bolognese! 

Cheese looks so tempting.

Beauty tea, cakes and cream puff.

Girly teatime!

Tiramisu and Chocolate matcha cake.

The tiramisu is really good. Love it! Must try ok!

Time for some girls being girls !

Missing thw time we 38 and being childish together.

Glad that we still have countless topics to chat. I really feel that we are no longer kids (although we still act like kids when we meet hahaha) because we only get to meet each other on public holidays now. How sad! You all are working adult or college student now! Except me, I am the lifeless one ngehehehe.Btw I think my hair colour faded? Sobsob. After that, we did super last minute stuff again. 

Yup! We dyed Ying's hair, like playing Barbie Doll. Well as you can see, I am the one that didn't contribute much. Nah just kidding!! I am doing recording stuffs okay!! So that you all can see what's happening BEHIND THE SCENES. THANKS ME NOW! *evil smile*

Yea yea recording what's happening also must use dual-camera. So that my epic face is in too ! 

(Perasan level up up up) 

#tipsforperasanphotographer 

Oh well, not going to show you the result hahaha because it's not obvious!! Anyway, day well spent with these girls. Okay I hope my existence brought joy and fun to you all wahahaha (perasan queen at work).

My insta of the day! 

Find me @wanling_hush on instagram! :D

Hope to meet up with my other friends asap!

Kuantan Day 2

1.12.2013 ; Sunday

Happy December peepaaa ! Time flies! It's the last month of the year!! ( Abuden?! )
Woke up in the early morning to have buffet breakfast at the hotel. Hmmm okay okay lah.
Then, sis and me decided to explore the hotel! We went to the facilities floor. Yeeeeeeee so many facilities such as swimming pool, snooker, game room, gym etc. So sad we only stayed here for one night.

Panorama from the pool side ! 

So windy and sorry for the photo quality wahahaha.

Checking out haha. Early Merry Christmas!

After that, dad brought us to the BEACH !!! Weeeeeee I miss this beach so much! I love love love beachhhhhh !! #happykid

Stayed there not more than 5 minutes then we had to leave. THANKS TO THE RAIN! 

But I was still satisfied! ;D

Happy Happy Happy Haaaaapeeeeeeeeeeeeee !!

Had Hainan Chicken Rice for our lunch ( Ohmai I am Hainanese and this is the first time I try Hainan Chicken Rice!!! Tastes good! ) and byebye Kuantan! 

p/s : Got to know flood happening in Kuantan on the next day omg. Everything please be alright ~ *praypray*

Kuantan Day 1

30.11.2013 ; Saturday

Aha still in the midst of SPM. The very last subject,Chinese on next Wednesday then I'm so done with this. Went back to Kuantan with family because my cousin sis is getting married ! The last time we went back to Kuantan was like few years ago ? Our first stop was at uncle's house for buffet lunch . Ahhhh the house... I can still remember how it looks like. Stepped into uncle's house, memories flashback, my grandma's funeral was held here 8 years ago. Had our lunch and the couple was having chinese wedding tea ceremony. Hehehehe and of course we (the kids) got angpaus from them.

After that, we went to book hotel. Gonna stay one night here!

First time in this hotel, Zenith Hotel.

The view from our room! ( 18th floor )

Oh yea! My hair was temporarily curled lol. Nou nouuu it was a misunderstanding! I cried in my heart when the saloon girl curling my hair hahaha.

Not really obvious cuz it was second day ok haha.

Btw I love my hair length now wahahahaha.

At night, we went to daa wedding dinner! 

Our table. It stated "relative" there. (:

Door gift.

Selfies with sis.

The wedding was good. The bride a.k.a my cousin sis specially went to the stage and thanked her family especially her parents. There was a video specially made for her dad and mom too. Awww so touched :') But but but I'm sorry to say that the food was sucks aishhh.

Enough for today I guess. Stay tuned for day 2! Happy wedding ! :D

Happy Living for 17 years

Happy Birthday to you 
Happy Birthday to you
Happy 17teen to you
Happy Birthday to Wan Ling ~

Aha ! 24.11.2013 again, it's my day ! OH HI TOMORROW IS SPM PHYSICS OKAY. What a present haha. Tuition from morning to evening today! Had a little surprise celebration in the centre. Thank you so much, especially the one who plan this and the noob who brought the cake in. HAHAHA SORRY FOR MY NOOB EXPRESSION I WAS TOTALLY DUNNO-WHAT-FEELING OK! Thank you very much ♥ ♥ ♥

Thanks for evey single wishes. I really really really appreciate them. No matter you remember or just simply wish on FB hahaha I appreciate it! That's why I reply one by one. ;D

The first wish is from weiguang and samsam. They even sang me birthday song through phone. So touched I want to cry.

Hwai Hwai, Thanks alot for the cake and all your wishes + Bitstrips. Thank you suipo, I love you so much ♥
Michelle, Thanks for the cake and your wishes + insta post ! Thank you! Love yaaa ♥
Thanks booboo for wasting so much time to wish me on every single social website hahaha 38 + pattern to the max but I love it! Thank you love you! ♥
Thanks huiying for the records though I STILL CAN'T LISTEN TO IT :( ♥
Thanks my fei pig and fei ning hahahaha love you two lots! ♥ ♥
Thanks siewhwa yihtyng jerwin for the insta post ! ★★★★★
Thanks my suilou Jon carmen gor and my dearest yinn ! ♥ ♥ ♥
Thank you for every single tweets ♥
Oh yea and thanks bitch for da insta video blek I still hate you. ☆
Thanks sis for the pressie too! ♥

Guess I still have to learn not to expect so much hahaha. Kinda sad cuz some of my close friends (to me only maybe) didn't even wish me :'(

NAHHHH it's okay haha.

The one I want to thank the most is my mommy !! Thank you very much mommy. Thanks for everything I love you ! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Look at my birthday dinner. The whole day I just feel like crying hahaha.

It was so nice. I am so grateful.

Thanks mom ❤

Mom even bought me two piece of cakes haha so cute and special.

★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★

Happy seventeen ! 

May my wishes come true. (:

THANK YOU ! I am officially 17 now! 

* So I actually had 4 types of different cake from secret recipe for my birthday hahaha #happyfatkid *

Blah blah on exam period

Should be eating SEJARAH now but then I suddenly feel like blogging so HI I AM HERE. Hehehe. Hmm.. where to start?

As y'all know I had just graduated from my high school. BUT SPM is still going on okay. Time flies. I can't believe these five years ended so fast. I started to miss everything.. I had just finished 2 subject - BM and English. AS USUAL I was quite disappointed on myself. My essays were sucks and I am super super careless aiks. But I know there's no point crying over the spilled milk. What I can do and shall do now is move on and focus on the other 8 subjects ! I CAN DO IT RIGHT ?! *praypray*

ALL THE BEST TO EVERYONE WHO HAVING EXAM NOW ! :D

When I was studying, I kept thinking how will my future be. What am I going to do after SPM? Am I still having chance to meet my friends? Where will I go? Will people miss me when I'm gone? etc etc.. All sorts of questions even super weird one running on my mind. This isn't the right time to think about all these but I can't help it. *sobsob* And I tend to have breathing difficulty recently I dunno why wuwuwu NO STRESS !

CAN'T WAIT TO THE LAST DAY AND WEEEEEEE I AM FREE !

Btw a random one, I am addicted to " NOU ! " recently. HAHAHA ! Whatever happens now and my first response will be definitely shouting " NOU ! " HAHAHA! That's super addictive lah, forgive me kay? NOU !!!
Inspired by this GRUMPY CAT ! Actually discovered this long time ago. SHO CUTE RIGHT ! LOVE THE EXPRESSION !!!

One more thing ! I had my last add maths class with ms lee few days ago. Ahhhhhh I realize she is actually good although she scolded me before HAHA. I will miss her stories and her epic hair okay. AND I will miss always rushing her homework last minute !!  A big thank you to her. Without her, I think I will never revise add maths until now hehehe. Please score well !

One one more thing !! Today will be the very last Physics class with Nicholas. *crycry* I will definitely miss this cute and kind tutor HAHAHA although I always fall asleep hehehe.


Here a grumpy-biting-jagung photo to end my random post. ( In case you forgot my face !! )

NOU !!!!

Well okay.. I'm turning 17 soon and godbless.
Have a wonderful weekend peeeepaaa !

9.11.2013 ; Saturday

Makan Makan

6.8.2013; Tuesday

Fourth day of holiday, I still haven't started my revision. Trial is comingggg soon, very soon, very very soon. I am scared but I just don't feel like studying. I sucks right, excuse banyak banyak haha. LACK OF MOTIVATION !!! Somebody please help me sob sob.
Went to have brunch with the bunch after 3 hours of tutition. NO MORE MCD DELIVERY THIS TIME.
Huang suggested to have fish head noodle but we just found out it was closed when we reached there. Then we long long long and realize there were so many restaurants closed eh ! So at last we went to a kopitiam hehe.

Snap a photo as we worried that we might not have the next time hahahaha. 

Appreciate !

Nice blowing water session.

Ming's " Yi zha yi zha.. " was epic HAHAHA

Went to have dessert for next round teeeeeeeheeeeeeeeee. 

First try " Mango Lou " and " Honeydew Lou ".

Had great morning-noon with them. 

Had fun shouting.. ahem I mean SINGING songs in the car with Ah Ning ! 

Again it was so hang fuk to have friend who knows how to drive.

Plus big car is bonus mark +++ HAHAHA 

Can't wait to get my own driving license !!

Thank you so much for fetching us ! ;D

Eat bao bao then off to the next event with ying.

Will update you soon ! (:

Noob

One and a half year, and these are what I got for myself. Funny, so funny. Disappointed yet I don't seems like taking any action. I think my life is all about having fun. I didn't work hard, don't you ?  Demotivated, unmotivated. 

Mid-term Break like finally !

24.5.2013 ; Friday

Wooooohoooooo Happy Wesak Day peeepaaaa !!!
YES ! Finally mid-term test was over !!!! Here comes our mid-term break !!!! :D Hoooohooooo imma forget about the suckishh result and enjoy these two weeks to the max ! HOLIDAY HOLIDAY HOLIDAY FTW !!!!
So yuppp went to OU with mum and sis this morning. S-H-O-P-P-I-N-G !!!
We spent almost 6 hours there. HAHA you know what, shopping is never tired for a girl !! ( copy from sis ) We can shop the whole day ! GAGAGA ! We spent a lot and thought we bought a lot but we actually didn't bought that much hmmmm. I wonder why. Fine, let's move on to lunch ! Yum yummm we had our lunch @ Nando's.

First time trying this. Dayummmmmm 

Peri-peri chicken *drool*

Omnomnomnom potato wedges ! 

Happy Belated Mummy's Day ! 

First day of holiday was well spent. 

Hopefully the following days are the same tooooo ! 

x

Hello, May

不知不觉又快要 mid term 了。想想，还有3 个考试，我就毕业了。快吧？中5真的好忙，好多事情要兼顾。我都应付不来。最近很奇怪，我有时会突然间很紧张，然后心跳加速，很难平复。一遇到什么不顺心的事，我的眼泪也很有效率地涌上来。然后我得用尽全力，把它们推回进去。我发誓忍着不哭是最难做的事情。唉。做决定也很难。我讨厌自己不像他人一样，那么果断。这个 2013 真是的！为什么那么喜欢撞期？去到一个就去不了另一个，唉，你不知道我很贪心的咩？我很想做到百者兼顾！回到学业，你知道吗，我的 first term 历史科目竟然是全班最差！我看了有点傻了，然后在傻笑。我觉得很对不起老师，老师太好了，唉。好多事情我答应了人家，我觉得我兑现不了。啊，好怕。我最近好酸，好容易吃醋。这种滋味不好受，我恨死了。我真的真的真的好害怕失去。不要跟我玩，这个游戏我玩不起啊。我很没用，对吧？还有一样，不要对我无缘无故发小姐脾气！要玩情绪，请你把自己锁在房间玩。哦，明天5月5，是马来西亚的大选！我生平第一次感到紧张咧，也很好奇结果是如何，哈哈。不comment啦，我只希望这次大选是干净的，clean and fair ！还有希望KL 星期一放假！please 〜 为什么我用华文？除了渲泄外，因为我要去比赛啦！得练练文笔，呵呵。五月，加油吧 ！希望一切安好 〜

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