The end of SPM, the end of High School

After Pangkor trip, it was Hari Anugerah Cemerlang at my high school. Great great I have to go back school with my charcoal skin and dark dark eye circles. Eh no you can't see my eye circles since my skin colour became as dark as that. Ok not funny hehehe. It's all because I slept really really late or shall I just say I slept early cuz it was like 3 or 4am!

Get back to the topic. I would say it was a dream came true day for me. When I was form 4, we were just like the students now, sitting on the assembly ground, watching ex-seniors came back to receive awards from the VIP guests, putting my hands together for them. That motivated me. I made a promise to myself back then. I want to come back as a award receiver just like them. YOLO right, if I miss it, I'll have no another chance. Erm it was counted as a little motivation for me to study hard. BUT YOU KNOW I AM STILL LAZY ANYWAY.

Quite surprised when I got my result actually because I didn't really expect high. Yup I am afraid of too much disappointments. It was not the best result but I'm still grateful although I will still regret whenever my mom brought this up. Nah nah nah nah forget it! I'm still happy because I had the chance to attend this day! Ngam ngam hou for the minimum requirement, I would say I'm lucky hehehe.

Just wanna note this down,

HEY YOU LITTLE GIRL, I FULFILLED WHAT I HAD PROMISED. YOU MAY GO ON LIFE WITH YOUR BIGGER DREAMS NOW (: 

Overall, I would say the little motivation did worked at some point. Like when I was demotivated and had no study mood at all or when I felt like giving up, this so called little motivation striked. DING DING it did pushed me A LITTLE muahahaha *syok sendiri* K lah I just wonder if anyone out there do this childish thing too, promise yourself you will xxxxxxx to motivate you! DETERMINATION! Oh yay this is the right word. Work or not? It really depends on you, yourself! I must say IT FEELS REALLY REALLY GREAT when you finally achieve it! Ahhh ~ Fighting guys! Be determined!

I know you are bored now haha so stop blah blah and here some photos!

Just kidding, I'll still bored you with words ohohoho. Here are my lovely and precious girls ♥

Glad to have them as my victims!! *evil smile*

(Things to regret: Yihtyng couldn't make it here and Teckjia was not in!)

Don't judge these books by their covers! They dressed so smart but they are still all 38 po aka crazy girls!!!

*OOPS AM I TALKING ABOUT MYSELF TOO OOPS*

These are part of my adorable but still 38 juniorsssssss ♥

All the best girls! 

OKOK I know I know! You probably want to ask me why are all girls in those photos. 

So here's a bonus for you and to wrap this post up.

Taadaaaaa! Excuse my blur scary face!!! Blame the guys teeheeee.

Lastly, it officially marks the end of my high school and SPM candidate's life.

I am getting old oh shit.

28.4.2014 ; Monday

What I did huh?

OH HI I AM HERE !!! Okay, I have to admit that blogging mood always strike at midnight. It's almost 1am and I can't sleep. Maybe it's because of the nap I took this evening OR maybe that few sips of Nescafe I just took? Oh whatever, conclusion is I CAN'T SLEEP and...I'm hungry too hahaha. There are always many things running on my mind once I lie on my bed. Oh yea one exception. Except when I am really really super exhausted and tired hehehe. I bet you are the same, right? Well, since I have that blogging mood SO why not I make some updates on my bloggy! (Obviously I am doing it now)

So it's April 2014 now and let me summarize everything in the past few months, shall we? ARE YOU READY FOR LONG LONG BLOG POST?! Readers be like, "Aren't you just said that you are going to SUMMARIZE?!" Haha ok stop! Let's start!

After graduation, people around me started their college or even found a job to not waste time! And me? Guess what I did? Aha! I did nothing a.k.a ROTTING at home. Unbelievable! I planned to go for any short courses since last year. Obviously that failed. Kinda awkward when people question me like "Yo, what have you been doing huh?" I will always smile like an idiot and say "Nothing eh, hehehehe rotting lo." *continue smile like an idiot* Their next response will always be.......

 "HUH? You didn't work meh?" or "HUH? You not boring meh? Stay at home everyday oh." YESH, with that face!

Btw I did something meaningful also lah. Not like really everyday doing nothing at home kekeke. I am now leaning Korean language. Ha, that's one of the thing I wanted to learn so badly! So far so good, still learning some general + basic sentences and words. Problem is I am still that lazy to do revision!! Ugh lazy kid. But I'm still grateful because the classes are free and we get free textbooks! My second target after I master this will be Japanese language! Hwaiting! I have a thing for languages or perhaps I love learning new things. Hope to learn as many things as possible when I am still young. (:

Oh yea, another thing that I had been doing was researching + thinking! Yepppp, I was so confused about my future. I am afraid of making wrong decision. I don't want to regret in the future. *sobsob* But I guess I had made up my mind. I shall go for something I like and I think I found it. My dream since I was small is to study overseas. Oh well, I am afraid that I couldn't achieve it since I am not taking pre-u courses that are recognized worldwide. Hmmm.... finger cross that I will have a chance to pursue degree overseas after my diploma...... And I hope the college I've chosen will not disappoint me.....

I am starting to think that money is important... It's like everything I need everything around me are all related to money. OH WHY. Btw there's a chinese quote comes to my mind: "钱不是万能的，但没有钱就万万不能" HAHA quite true tho. I remember I saw it on Keat Ming's shirt last time if I am not mistaken. Dunno why but I am starting to feel bad for asking money from my dad. Uhh, I even feel really bad for asking him to pay my college fees. I dunno why, I just feel that I am useless sometimes. I should've studied harder and get more A+. I should've study will full scholarships. But what past is past, can't change it anyway. ): I promise to pay back everything you gave me in the future, dad and mom. (:

I guess that's all for tonight. Lastly, let me end my post with this

Good night peeeeepaaa! 

*Photos from my tumblr http://blur-tiramisu.tumblr.com and Google*


9.4.2014 ; 1:46 a.m